Thursday, April 21, 2011

My old habits....

Last night I was reflecting on the person I have become and I realized that over the course of the last year and a half my life has changed pretty dramatically, for the better.. mainly because of the healthy lifestyle that I have finally decided to adopt.... you see, I used to be overweight, and I'll even use the word tubby/fat/ect. It was bad! My outlet for anything was food.. if I was stressed, i would eat, if I did something great, I would reward myself with food, in order to make other people happy I would feed them... however, that has all changed now.. I now ease my stress by working out, and I reward myself with manicures, and I now try to also feed others healthier options. It has changed my outlook on life.. and I can tell you that for the first time in a long time, I'm proud of myself, and I'm proud of where I came from to where I am today.

During my reflection I thought I would share a few things that I used to do in my past.. along with a few pictures... to show you how my life has dramatically changed

-I used to LOVE sundresses, because there was no waist line, and you couldn't tell how big I was.. a Large fit and there wasn't a number correlated to it

-I avoided the scale as if it was the plague. I was afraid of the number that I would see, even at the doctors office, I would stand on the scale backwards, and make sure they didn't tell me what it read. [looking back I wish I weighed myself at my heaviest so I would know accurately the weight loss that I have had over the course of the last 18 months]

-I wore a pair of jeans to bed at night [before our trip to Boston] to stretch them out [i couldn't afford to buy a new pair of pants, however I needed more than 1 pair for the 5 day vacation]

-I used to go through the drive through and waiver on what to get for dinner, either a hamburger combo or a chicken sandwich combo.. when I couldn't decide, I would go for the hamburger combo and tack on a 5 piece nugget [and eat it in the car before i got home] or go for the chicken sandwich combo and get a jr hamburger to go along with it! GROSS!

-I would hide behind justin in pictures, use a pillow to cover my mid section, use picnik to crop out anything that looked large, or use anything to hide my mid section


-I used to thrive on buying shoes and accessories.. because they will always fit, regardless of how much you weigh

-I would go to the gym, try and work out on the elliptical for 20 minutes, cut it short at 10 minutes and think I had a "good" workout.

There are days when I get discouraged because the scale doesn't reflect the effort that I put in the night before at the gym, or the healthy options I'm eating, but I need to look back at how far I have come in this journey.

Looking back at my old habits, I am embarrassed of who I let myself get to, and I knew that I had to want to lose weight for myself, not for anyone else, and I had to have the motivation and drive to do it.


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25 comments:

Mrs. S said...

wow girl.. you definitely have something to be proud of. that is awesome! do you weigh yourself everyday or once a week. I am finally starting to make the healthy lifestyle switch! It has been a major struggle for me. Keep up the hard work!

Stephanie the PW said...

wow, what an honest post! You should be VERY proud, and enjoy every day that you feel so wonderful. You certainly deserve it! And what's more, you've become healthier in smart ways - no fads, just healthy eating and exercise. Now go reward yourself with a Diet Coke from Sonic! :D

Domesticated-Bliss said...

You go girl! It is SO hard to stay motivated and I admire anyone who can! Keep up the good work :)

Jenn @ West Sac Honey said...

Good reflection! I'm happy your happy and you've done such a good job! It's a great feeling to realize how far you've come!!

I say this as I'm eating (going on 3rd) bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch..

Lindsay said...

THis is such an honest post. I admire you for wanting to change. This is a hard thing and you are on the right track! Stay strong. And remember you are beautiful inside and OUT! :)

Aly @ Analyze This said...

Being happy with yourself for yourself is the best, isn't it? You've done great! And regardless of any size you'd ever be, you're one of my best friends, and like your accessories, that will never change and always fit :) xoxo

Kelly said...

Wow, what an honest post Lindsey. Like you said, I can imagine the sadness that you feel but PLEASE feel proud and excited for where you are! And think of all that you are inspiring and encouraging by this post, your daily habits, etc. GO YOU for getting this point-- what an accomplishment!! You're fabulous. Simply put :-)

Lindsay said...

Thanks for sharing this with us. I def. need some motivation, looking good girl!

Mama Laughlin said...

Love this post! I, too, had some pretty bad habits like yours.
I was a closet eater.

I'm so proud of how far you've come! You never really know how happy you can be until you change your life for the better!
:)

Shannon Dew said...

Girl you should be so proud! Healthy beats being skinny (but that's nice too)! You look great!!

Jess said...

Love this Linds! You look fab ;) can't wait to see you this weekend!

Kristi said...

Thank you for sharing! I TOTALLY did/do all of those things. I was overweight, skinny, and now overweight again and trying to get back to feel like "myself". I've done all those tricks in the book! Congratulations on the new YOU!

Megan said...

Love this! Thanks for sharing! it takes a lot of balls! I think Alli and I are getting together soon to talk wedding stuff, you wanna join? Want to plan a craft night??
Megan

Neely said...

Be proud! Love this!

Marcy XOXO said...

Isn't actually being proud of yourself like the best feeling in the world??? I gained almost 100 lbs when I got pregnant with my daughter 4 1/2 years ago... I have now lost 100 lbs and I feel wonderful! I don't concern myself with all the negatives so much anymore... YOUR AWESOME!

Allison said...

You look great and what an accomplishment!!

Brittany said...

Very inspirational!!! Trying to pull out my inner Lindsey workout habits!! Such an accomplishment!

Allyson said...

First off you look incredible from all you have accomplished. Your feelings in this post are how I feel right now . . .I am a shoe lover at the moment bc none of my clothes fit and it is such a hard place to be in.

Lindsay @ The Lean Green Bean said...

so excited to read about all your positive changes. so proud of you!!!

Kirby and Anna said...

What a honest post... something that every girl can relate to! I've done the drive-thru ordering you described (recently in fact) and the workout that was cut short happens about once a week for me.

So thanks for the inspiration! You look great!

Stacey Bjork said...

1word.....AMAZING!! You look fabulous and are such amazing motivation for all of us!! Love the post :)

Leah said...

Way to go! That is something to be so proud of, thanks for sharing!

Crazy Shenanigans-JMO said...

Look how much you've accomplished! Way to go!

Molly said...

You look SO good now girl! I feel myself creeping up to a weight that I've NEVER seen before and it's driving me crazy, yet I feel like I have no motivation to change it. Which is depressing me even more, it's a vicious cycle! AHHH!

Jodi said...

I'm so proud of you! You just described me exactly in your post. I would love if you did a post on your evolution, like what you did at first, what you do now for food, exercise, etc?

Again, you look great!